Love and Rejection

I live only to repeat yesterday over and over again in my head. Like Bill Murray? Except everything around me changes and only the motions are the same. So instead of breaking the glass, I'll break the vase. Or maybe I'll knock the cat onto the floor or look down and see my fish is trying to breathe oxygen from air instead of from water.

What I'm saying is that, no matter what we learn, we can't help who we love, but we can help those we may hurt.

I remember when I was 18 me and my best friend Steve and this girl, Carrie, all snuck down into the basement of my parent's house. Carrie and I crawled into the pull-out bed, and Steve sat on the floor glaring angrily at us. We pretended he was scary looking so we could cuddle together. When I saw her two years later she had just had her second kid. She said her last name was Snowball, but I never knew if I should believe that.

Tonight I finish writing an article I started a few weeks ago. This is the sound track (on random, repeat):

38 tracks in playlist, average track length: 4:05
Playlist length: 2 hours 35 minutes 39 seconds

Playlist files:

1. The Magnetic Fields - I Don't Want To Get Over You (2:22)
2. The Walkmen - Everyone Who Pretended to Like Me is Gone (4:12)
3. The Walkmen - Rue The Day (3:35)
4. The Walkmen - They're Winning (2:06)
5. A Trillion Barnacle Lapse - Binary Roulette (3:00)
6. A Trillion Barnacle Lapse - On the Docks (4:52)
7. Argentine - Slumberside (5:53)
8. Ashbury - Blood On Stone (5:19)
9. Asobi Seksu - Walk on the Moon (4:35)
10. Electro Group - Glistened (4:32)
11. Emperor X - Constantly Constantly Radio's On (1:56)
12. Epic45 - You Said Nothing (2:31)
13. Experimental Aircraft - Electric Surgery (5:38)
14. Experimental Aircraft - Symphony (3:11)
15. Frausdots - Dead Wrong (5:00)
16. Magnet - Heaviest Heart (4:42)
17. Magnet - Little Miss More Or Less (3:41)
18. Moving Units - Turn Away (2:48)
19. My Dad Is Dead - The Big Picture (6:24)
20. Sigur Rós - Hamast (7:10)
21. Sigur Rós - Svefn (10:04)
22. Singapore Sling - Guiding Light (6:14)
23. The Magnetic Fields - I Don't Want To Get Over You (2:22)
24. The Arcade Fire - Wake Up (5:35)
25. The Kinks - Nothing In This World Can.... (2:42)
26. The Legends - There And Back Again (3:13)
27. The Legends - When The Day Is done (2:27)
28. The Occasion - Smoke and Mirrors (5:42)
29. Tree Wave - May Banners (3:44)
30. Tree Wave - Sleep (2:56)
31. The Walkmen - Wake Up (4:13)
32. Azure Ray - 4th of July (4:13)
33. Broadcast - Come On Let's Go (3:17)
34. Felt - Black Ship in the Harbour (2:58)
35. Post - A Rest (4:58)
36. The Movies - Creation Lake (3:14)
37. The Movies - Dont steal my licks (2:03)
38. The Movies - Scary Footsteps (2:17)